A famous person once said that "One of the hardest things in life is having words in your heart that you can't utter." And I believe that there are a lot of reasons why someone can't just say the things in his heart. There's a voice in my head that keeps telling me not to complicate the things that are already complicated.
I'm only human. And it's killing me everytime I see them. I'm trying to focus on my job as if nothing is wrong but most of my friends are finally noticing something is off. It's as if I'm wearing this mask trying to keep it together.
If you love someone, would you fight for it no matter what the consequence are even if you knew that your gonna hurt your close friend in the process or would you just let the pain remain and continue the friendship that you have in the first place and hoping that someday there will be a chance you can be together?
I guess I'm scared of the consequences that this action might bring. But one of the reasons why I want to let it out is for me to avoid any "what if's" in the future. My heart is telling me to go on and say it but my mind is telling me not to and just keep it to myself. I wish I could get her alone and just say the things I wanted to say. She is always with someone and I just couldn't get the chance to speak to her.
I never had a problem speaking to what's in my mind but when it comes to speaking what's in the heart....then that's another issue. Right now, I'm trying to be the best guy for her. Hoping that someday she will notice it. Maybe one of these days.....
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