The Heart of the Matter

People fall in love. That's a fact. No matter how many times we fall in love in a lifetime, whether it's for the right reasons or not, it's still is magical. Magical in a sense that your world will stop whenever your together and you think of him/her with every heartbeat when you are apart. Love can be crazy at times. And it's so powerful that it could bring the best in us or the worst in us.

I may be the last person you'll think of to get an advice about love and relationship. But one thing I do know is that love hurts and that we as human beings should never ever be reckless with our people's heart.

I am not myself in the past few weeks. This is what bugs me. I just got to get this out of my system. I never thought that this could happen to me but it did. I know from the very beginning that this can't be good but instead I had to follow my heart. The heart that keeps telling me that there's such a thing as happy endings. Love can be simple if we are living in a perfect world. But what if you love someone so much and that someone loves somebody else? It doesn't take a genius to know that it's wrong to continue to love someone who is already with somebody else.

Even if your intentions are good, it is still a mistake to continue loving that person. But should we consider it as a mistake? A mistake to love someone so bad and it hurts so much to see her with someone else.

Sometimes its unbearable to watch them together. My heart was crushed into several pieces and the worst part is that I had to keep it to myself. I never thought that saying "I'm happy for you" is one of the hardest thing to say. A part of me is saying to give up and the other keeps telling to continue because you believe that there will come a day that she might change her mind. It made me even crazier when I found out that their engaged.

This is the part about love that I just don't understand. Should we just stop loving someone just because she found somebody else or should we hope and continue that maybe (just maybe) there's a chance that we can be together? When someone hurts us, we tend to hurt them back. But not me. I can never hurt her nor be mad at her for what she did. Maybe I'm stupid or foolish but that's love for me.

I've learned that love should always follow forgiveness. I planned to say to her everything that I wanted to say but I just can't find the perfect time to do it. It's not that I'm scared of the consequences it may bring but I can never accept the fact that I am the cause of their break up. I'm just hoping that someday i'll be lucky enough to find the courage to face her.

People say that we should be with someone who knows what they have when they have you. Maybe someday I will.

Moment of Surrender

The sun is up, the water is inviting and Jack Johnson's song is playing loudly in my head. There's nothing I could ask for more! The only thing upsetting is that it's already monday and I don't want to go to work! Hehehe. I do love my job but if your surrounded with beautiful sandy beaches with tropical breeze soothing your aching body, you just gotta give in. 

But I realized something. As we grow up, we are bound with responsibilities to our family and yourself. It will come a day that we are old enough to know what's right or wrong. People expect more from us. We grow up and become serious. No matter how old we are, we still encounter the same problem we have when we were seventeen. 

Have you ever had a friend who always jokes around and keeps you laughing but sometimes you don't know whether he or she is serious or not? He/ she jokes around too much that sometimes you don't know when to take him or her seriously. Seriously? I've known this guy since college and his got this way of stating the obvious in a weird funny way. Well, almost everything that comes in his mouth is weird. It's funny at first but as years go by it's really annoying. It's kinda hard to take him seriously. I tried talking to him but he is still the same. Is it worth risking the eight years of friendship for this? I'm trying to understand him but it came to a point that it's hard to trust him anymore.  

I still have to go to work later. No regrets.

Grey's Anatomy Character

Just for fun.

Nightminds

I finally got the time to write here. I thinks it's been a month since the last time I posted a blog. Though I'm still adjusting to my new schedule which starts at 8pm to 5am. Coffee is now my new best friend! My shift just ended a while ago so I'm a bit tired from working as a phone banker that is based in the US. I'm still trying to get the hang of it though. But don't get me wrong, I love my job! There are so many people who are unemployed right now and I am just thankful that I got a decent job that can support my wants and needs.

Anyway, since I haven't blog for several weeks, here's a few thoughts that is running in my mind lately. 

The Grammy nominations were already announced and I'm disappointed that Bjork and Jack Johnson didn't make in the list. Bjork's "Volta" and Jack Johnson's "Sleep Through the Static" should be given a credit. I love their albums and I admire their songwriting skills. But kudos to Kathy Griffin for making her album "For Your Consideration" in the Best Comedy album category. 

I'm loving the cool climate here. It's starting to feel the spirit of Christmas! I wonder what's gonna be our meal for Noche Buena? Christmas is in the air!

Kudos to Manny Pacquiao for winning the dream match against Oscar Dela Hoya last December 06, 2008. Good Job! 

Last weekend I got the chance to watch a movie starring Keanu Reeves and Jennifer Connelly in the sci-fi remake of the 1951 classic film called "The Day the Earth stood still". I was pretty disappointed when I watched this movie not because its got something to do with Scientology but it felt like there's something missing in the story. And it's kinda hard to imagine Keanu as an alien who wore a suit trying to save our planet. I was also expecting more explosion and destruction in which the film failed to deliver. At the end of the movie, It felt like I was robbed or tricked. I was hoping for a refund. Damn!

Lastly, I have this last song syndrome in my mind. It's from the Grammy nominated artist Adele called "Chasing Pavements". This would probably be one of my favorite songs to date. You can check her out here! It's funny how people are willing to give everything for that special person to love them back even if it leads nowhere.