MOMENT OF CLARITY

"There is no difference in what we're doing in here that doesn't show up as bigger symptoms out there. So why spend all our time in dressing our bandages when we have the ultimate key to cause right here, our underneath."

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Another Brick in the Wall

Teachers, mentors and instructors are considered to be the unsung heroes in our present time. They are the ones who mold and nurture the young minds of the future. They provided challenges and create ways to help us get a better understanding in the things we need to know. I still remember my teacher who pushed me to go further not only academically but also in being adept in the real world.
 
But not all teachers are the same. Some loves to terrorize their students with a pop quiz or humiliate them in front of the class. I guess there's something about being superior to the inferior that creates this fondness of terror. Whenever they mention your name in class, there's a severe chill at your spine and suddenly your mouth becomes dry. Either way, we all have our share of this kind of teachers or professors, that loves to be superior above all else. 

I can vividly remember during high school days, I had this professor who taught me subject-verb agreement. I must say that I'm a pretty average student who tries to do extra curricular activities as possible. At one time, whenever I raised my hand (for some reason) she always thought that I needed to go to the bathroom. It's not that I don't participate that much in class but at one point I think she doesn't want me to be in her class at all. She keeps on giving side comments whenever I participate in the class discussion. It kinda hindered me to talk in class since then. I don't have any idea why she thinks that way. It's just frustrating when your professor thinks your dumb. The good thing is that if I messed up my grammar here, especially my subject-verb agreement, I know who to blame. Hehehe. (Just joking!) 


Monday, November 3, 2008

Underdog

We love to think that we are gonna be great at one point in our life. It's not bad to think that way but the disappointment is as well high whenever we did not meet our expectations. It's funny at  times, we feel more safe in the things that are expected. It's what keeps us alive. But the things that we did not expect are sometimes the one that gives the path to start and these are the things that really change our lives significantly. 

I got a new job but somehow I'm not happy enough. Well, I actually considers myself happy but not jumping-up-and-down happy. It's our second week and I can't wait for the weekend to come. All the excitement that I had before suddenly disappeared. Not that I'm complaining but during the past few days have been quite nerve wracking. There's just so many things that makes me wonder and I feel like I'm gonna explode. It's hard for me to adjust and it sucks! I didn't expect that this could be so hard.


I don't know everything but some of the best things in my life are unplanned. From scratch I decided to start all over again. Though I'm still hoping that this fresh start will be better. It's never easy to be an underdog.  I guess in the meantime, I just have to enjoy my training days and put a smile like I mean it.