People fall in love. That's a fact. No matter how many times we fall in love in a lifetime, whether it's for the right reasons or not, it's still is magical. Magical in a sense that your world will stop whenever your together and you think of him/her with every heartbeat when you are apart. Love can be crazy at times. And it's so powerful that it could bring the best in us or the worst in us.
I may be the last person you'll think of to get an advice about love and relationship. But one thing I do know is that love hurts and that we as human beings should never ever be reckless with our people's heart.
I am not myself in the past few weeks. This is what bugs me. I just got to get this out of my system. I never thought that this could happen to me but it did. I know from the very beginning that this can't be good but instead I had to follow my heart. The heart that keeps telling me that there's such a thing as happy endings. Love can be simple if we are living in a perfect world. But what if you love someone so much and that someone loves somebody else? It doesn't take a genius to know that it's wrong to continue to love someone who is already with somebody else.
Even if your intentions are good, it is still a mistake to continue loving that person. But should we consider it as a mistake? A mistake to love someone so bad and it hurts so much to see her with someone else.
Sometimes its unbearable to watch them together. My heart was crushed into several pieces and the worst part is that I had to keep it to myself. I never thought that saying "I'm happy for you" is one of the hardest thing to say. A part of me is saying to give up and the other keeps telling to continue because you believe that there will come a day that she might change her mind. It made me even crazier when I found out that their engaged.
This is the part about love that I just don't understand. Should we just stop loving someone just because she found somebody else or should we hope and continue that maybe (just maybe) there's a chance that we can be together? When someone hurts us, we tend to hurt them back. But not me. I can never hurt her nor be mad at her for what she did. Maybe I'm stupid or foolish but that's love for me.
I've learned that love should always follow forgiveness. I planned to say to her everything that I wanted to say but I just can't find the perfect time to do it. It's not that I'm scared of the consequences it may bring but I can never accept the fact that I am the cause of their break up. I'm just hoping that someday i'll be lucky enough to find the courage to face her.
People say that we should be with someone who knows what they have when they have you. Maybe someday I will.
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