Underdog

We love to think that we are gonna be great at one point in our life. It's not bad to think that way but the disappointment is as well high whenever we did not meet our expectations. It's funny at  times, we feel more safe in the things that are expected. It's what keeps us alive. But the things that we did not expect are sometimes the one that gives the path to start and these are the things that really change our lives significantly. 

I got a new job but somehow I'm not happy enough. Well, I actually considers myself happy but not jumping-up-and-down happy. It's our second week and I can't wait for the weekend to come. All the excitement that I had before suddenly disappeared. Not that I'm complaining but during the past few days have been quite nerve wracking. There's just so many things that makes me wonder and I feel like I'm gonna explode. It's hard for me to adjust and it sucks! I didn't expect that this could be so hard.

I don't know everything but some of the best things in my life are unplanned. From scratch I decided to start all over again. Though I'm still hoping that this fresh start will be better. It's never easy to be an underdog.  I guess in the meantime, I just have to enjoy my training days and put a smile like I mean it.